my life in colors

My life in colors is paints,duns,chesnuts,sorrels,bays,buckskins. Its made of a hard-core sport. Putting your trust in a 1,200 pound animal and knowing that you could be killed but thinking that won't happen. Why?? Because i love my sport and will chase my dreams not by foot but by my horse. Unless you ride you will never fell the rush of it and will never know why I AM AN EQUESTRIAN.

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Everyone has those days, Lately those days have been mine.

Well, I’ve kinda been in a dark spot lately. Its February. I had my best friend die February 24, 2010 and the other February 6, 2011. One was a beautiful paint named Edearl and the other a palomino named Bill. Its a rough time of year for me. I know they’re looking down at me and wanting me to be happy but its so very hard. Sometimes I think “What the hell are you doing with me God” and I just hope my future isn’t anything like my past because I don’t think I will make it if it is, I think “who the fucking hell has my god damn voodo doll??” Sometimes I wonder how I’ve made it this far because I don’t think I have ever got cut a break. Everyone says it will get better soon its like NOOO it wont I have thought that for years and it never gets better. I always say I wish someone knew how I feel but in reality I wouldn’t wish that upon anyone because its a horrible feeling. SORRY just had to vent my feelings.